Trans-ethnic

I'm a pre-op trans-ethnic. I was born white, but I am beginning to question my ethnicity. I am considered a majority, but I am looked down upon by minorities. I have been profiled by people who think that, just because I am white, I am a racist. Police pull me over for merely speeding or having no brake lights. People bump into me on the street and don't say excuse me. I have been passed over for promotions and not hired after job interviews. I have been called whitey, cracker, redneck, and other derogatory, demeaning names. I am legal citizen, which is rapidly becoming an oddity. It does not matter that people say they are not bigots or that they do not behave as bigots, I can tell that they really are bigots just by looking at them. I tell them they “don’t know me” when they question my behavior but they don’t realize that “I know them better than they know themselves.” I hear the snickers and laughter from people while I am in the room. I notice that waitresses and waiters seem to ignore me in restaurants. I hear people say "hello" and "thank you" to me but I know they don’t mean it. I can tell that they look down upon me and really hate me no matter what they say or do.

Until I complete the surgery and become another ethnicity, I will have to suffer the consequences of being white. I will have to train for, look for, get, and keep a job so I can eat and have clothing and housing. I will not be able to attend protests because of having to work. I will have to pay taxes. I will have to be responsible not only for my actions but the actions of all white people since the beginning of time. Of course nothing comes for free. After the surgery, I will have to sell my soul to become a socialist and vote for liberals.